I frequently remind myself and my kids that it is not wrong to ask questions, God is not afraid of questions, but what we need to do is turn towards our loving, good God in the questioning and not away from Him.

How can you let yourself out in a creative way today?

If you aren’t sure, don’t let it be stressful but an exciting adventure as you pursue the answer. Perhaps, go back to childhood memories of things you loved to do before it ever had to look a certain way...

  But somewhere along the way (actually at several somewheres) I knew God was showing me that He knew exactly what was in my heart, what would make me happy, and I needed to loosen the death grip I had on my dreams. He was asking me to keep my hands open with the desires of my heart.

   I've become (painfully aware) that I've lost my color. Well, I don't think it's too far gone- just a little buried and tweaked with time and changes. I GET TO choose my path and it will be the right one for me.

So, in the midst of my world being shaken and the worlds of those I love, I broke down. I felt so grieved that I started to come to the conclusion that it would be better to not feel any of it…to just stop caring…

I have been entrusted with 4 beautiful children. And even though I will not flat out tell people that I disagree with them, I can CHOOSE to agree with the truth. I can CHOOSE to listen to what God is saying about my kids and then treat them and raise them accordingly. 

"So no matter what I imagine. And no matter how good I think Heaven is...it's better than that???!!"

My heart is to love and to be a safe place. And maybe if you feel the same way, you’ll know you aren’t the only one in the world who feels the way you do. I am here and I get you and we are just trying to figure it out.

As an adult you learn how to hide things better or carry pain longer but for most kids it will come out in some way or another...

My heart ached, building up stronger walls and plans of how to stay protected from situations and people who would ever try to hurt me in the future.