Well, it’s been a long time since I’ve done this blog thing… My mind has been arrested on a topic that I do not have words for and it has been almost impossible to change the subject. I do not feel quite ready to write about it or even share because it actually feels too scary—even my own thoughts on the matter, let alone my concern for yours… so I am going to leave it at that for now and will be praying for whatever revelation I am missing to MOVE ON.
I wanted to talk to whoever reads these about the concept of letting out your sound, your light, or whatever makes you YOU… You were created unlike any other person in the entire world and in all of history. And you carry a unique creativity that only you are capable of expressing.
For me, that release of expression has often looked like bursting out into random song as I express my love for my children or life. I very much enjoy singing about my children’s names and what they mean. I also sing when Im frustrated and mad… I even remember singing out at the top of my lungs- “IS THIS ALLL I’ll ever be? Is this all I’ll ever do…” while I was folding laundry for the zillionth time.
Other times it has looked like hiding meaningful words that I feel God has put on my heart for a person into a painting. I’ve also seen it in home decorating! One of my best friends has 5 beautiful children in one room (hello Marin!) and has managed to make the space where they sleep perfectly decorated to represent and celebrate who they each are. It’s absolutely amazing! I can’t even do that with an entire room for one child.
Can you find the hidden words in this?
How do you accomplish this you may wonder… well it first starts with being aware…aware that you have something to let out, something that’s meaningful and unique. IF you find yourself saying that you aren’t creative or don’t have anything to let out, well than this is the perfect time for you to get the TRUTH from Jesus.
Seriously, if you have core beliefs that are saying something different than what God is saying, you want to get that straightened out. So even now, take a minute and invite God to this moment. Ask Him to show you any lies you’ve been believing about yourself. OR if you say you aren’t creative- ask God where that belief came from. What does this belief look like inside of you? “Im not enough. I cant. Im not important. If only I looked like, sounded like…” What have these negative self-concepts done to your heart and the way you see yourself?
You are not stuck and you are not alone. So be aware of the presence of God around you and welcome His truth, His light, and His perfect love. Hand over all the negative thoughts, memories, and lies you’ve been believing- probably for a very, very long time. Even say, “I release this to you Jesus, forgive me for holding on to it.”
Once you’ve let it go and received His forgiveness. Ask Perfect Love what He has for you in exchange for all that you gave up. This is the fun part… listen and wait to see what the truth is about who you are, your gifts, talents, and identity. What gift does He have for you in exchange? Receive it!
Next, its time to discover what you are passionate about. My children are all consuming at this time in my life and so my creative expression goes towards them a lot of the time. There have been times, however, where I felt super passionate about the city I was in.
A few years back we were living in Vallejo, CA and one of my neighbors was telling me about her new favorite blog called “Why I hate Vallejo.” I was super shocked that this was actually a thing and even felt protective over the city I was a part of. So I decided to ask God what He was saying over Vallejo and added in what I wanted for Her…and wrote a song about it. (Here is a link to hear it on my Facebook page- https://www.facebook.com/savannah.box/videos/vb.1610436335/10203276563907457/?type=3 )
So how can you let yourself out in a creative way today?
If you aren’t sure, don’t let it be stressful but an exciting adventure as you pursue the answer. Perhaps, go back to childhood memories of things you loved to do before it ever had to look a certain way...